Repsol Sports Centre Calgary

Where narcissists, pimps and conservatives come to work out with the folks recovering from injury

Hi Heather,

I received your letter. In it you make some alarming unsubstantiated allegations, then you threaten me with police action.

How did this conversation get from having a chat to clear up some confusion to 'come back to this facility and I will call the cops'?

Well first of all, you won't answer your phone or return calls, or answer emails, which is my preference because there is a record of communication, and cc'd witnesses. Also, my speech has been impacted, due to a stroke, so I lack the nuance of regular speech, and often only have one volume due to over enunciation, in order to be understood, especially when stressed. Apparently this is alarming to the uneducated listener and can be misunderstood, especially when they are interrupting and talking over me.

In your letter you stated as a fact, that I had abused your staff. Then meted out punishment and dire threats. Yet you have made no effort to talk to me about the incident: I was in conversation with a gent in a wheelchair, also a stroke survivor, discussing some alarming symptoms I had, a possible TIA, a precursor to a life threatening stroke. Since I'm not sure of your empathy or education, I will explain that such a conversation itself can be life threatening, it can lead to an anxiety attack, which exacerbates symptoms such as speech and walking impediments and in extreme cases may even cause another stroke.

But it doesn't matter. Your staff had no way of knowing the details, but surely could have picked up that something was going on, when they walked into middle of our conversation and just started talking, without an excuse me, or sorry to interrupt, and our response was, this is a private conversation please excuse us. That was too vague, or ignored, because they kept interrupting like nothing had been said, so they were then told that they was being intrusive and they would have to come back later, this was not a good time. Simply, this was a private conversation and they were interrupting. Of course hearing from someone that has little capability for nuance or volume control can be construed as being yelled at, but even if it was, and it wasn't, that isn't abuse. I have the right to express my emotions, and others have the right to know what they are. Abusive statements start with the word 'you' and are descriptive, generally in a negative way. Saying that we find your staff's repeated and unwanted behavior intrusive, come back another time, after repeatedly letting them know that this wasn't a good time, also isn't abusive, it's assertion of rights to privacy about a very private topic, my medical event.

Your response instead of hearing both sides of the issue, leading to a fuller understanding has been to deactivate my card, which I have paid for, and disappear, leaving me alarmed and concerned, after being shamed and publicly humiliated by your staff at the gate, barred entry in front of friends and colleagues, had to wait for four hours for return transport and you nowhere to be found, subsequently not answering calls and emails, then finally communicating by letter that the police will become involved if I return.

I spoke to your customer service manager through email, you have a copy, requesting a refund of my training fees and my years pass to the facility, as I choose to no longer deal with the gross incompetency of the staff at Repsol.

After 40 years of dealing with the public, first as an addictions councilor, an adult education art teacher, an art therapist for Care West specializing in neuro disabilities, and for a time a customer service manager with specializations in conflict resolution and assertiveness training through Mount Royal University, I feel I am well qualified to speak to the handling of this issue.

Essentially I find the experience at Repsol repeatedly one of dealing with blame shifting , entitled, emotionally immature , psychologically stunted , unempathetic cretins.

I'll leave you, as this place obviously isn't my preference, with some wisdom from Dr. Albert Ellis, my teacher and the foremost psychotherapist of the last century, winner of every honour available in the psychology world for his invention of cognitive therapy :

"Human beings are not perfect. They don’t have total control over all their actions. In the real world, we all make mistakes from time to time and treat others badly because (1) we don’t know any better; (2) we can’t do any better; or (3) we’re too disturbed. That’s just the way we are. Believing that others must do the right thing ignores the real world. Blaming and punishing someone for a mistake he makes because he doesn’t know any better will not make him smarter. Blaming and punishing someone for a mistake he makes because he can’t do any better won’t help him to do it better next time. And blaming and punishing someone for a mistake he makes because he is disturbed won’t make him any less disturbed."

Cheers

Curriculum Vitae

Jerald W. Blackstock
Painting diploma, (Alberta University of the Arts), BFA.

jeraldblackstock.ca
digital debauchery, bloggery and bookery

Education

2005 Small Business Management Certificate, MKS Learning Centre

2001 Adult Education Teaching Certificate, (in progress) Mount Royal University, Calgary, Alberta.

1998 to present Continuing Education in Adobe Photoshop, Adobe InDesign, Adobe Premiere Pro.

1998 Bachelor of Fine Arts, Alberta University of the Arts.

1992-1996 Diploma in Fine Arts. Painting major, Alberta University of the Arts

1973-1980 Private Art Instruction Grip Studios, Gary Ripley

1971-1973 Mount Royal College, Arts and Sciences, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

1969-1971 Western Canada High School, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

Professional Employment

2019 Calgary Arts Development Assessment Committee

2005 to present Owner Blackstock Art&Design 

2005 Professional Development Instructor, Alberta University of the Arts, for Calgary Public School Board Art Instructors

2004 Professional Development Instructor, Performing Arts Center, for Calgary Separate School Board Art Instructors

1995-2001 Alberta University of the Arts, Continuing Education Faculty, instructor, painting and drawing.

2001: Mount Royal College, Continuing Education Faculty, instructor, painting. Sessional

1996-2001 Own and operate Jerald Blackstock Fine Arts, fine art consulting, professional picture framing, commission works.

1995 Painting Instructor, Guest Lecturer, Alberta University of the Arts, Extension

1998 Painting Instructor, Huntington Society of Canada, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

1998 Painting Instructor, Care West, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

1997 Painting Instructor, Wheatland Further Education Society, Strathmore, Alberta

1997 Painting Instructor, Huntington Society of Canada

1998 Painting Instructor, Leisure Directions, VRRI, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

1995 Painting Instructor, Wheatland Further Education Society, Strathmore, Alberta

1993-1994 Gallery technician / Administrative assistant. The New Gallery, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

1993 Special Projects Coordinator The New Gallery, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

1984-1986 Art Director, Chinook Plastics, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

Solo OffWeb Exhibitions

2015 The summer of Thayre, Kawa, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

2013 The Art of Jerald Blackstock, Kawa, Calgary, Alberta Canada

2012 The Duchy of Jerald, www.jeraldblackstock.ca

2000 Public Work: Udderly Art, Bovine with a Cause (Corn on the Cow), Canada Safeway.

1998 Critters, Deacon Ulrich Fine Arts, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

1997 Reflections on the Garden, Devonian Art Gallery, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

1997 Bennett Jones Law Firm, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

1997 The Bread Line, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

1997 Books and Books, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

1995 Jerald Blackstock, Third Year Work, The Boardwalk, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

Group OffWeb Exhibits

2010 Diorama Show, The Sugar Shack, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

2007 Contemporary Art and Spirituality, Scarboro United Church, Calgary Alberta, Canada

2000 Udderly Art, Agriculture Building, Bovine with a Cause (Corn on the Cow).

2000 ad hocracy. The Centre Gallery, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

1999 Aspects: Land, Body, Mind. The Centre Gallery, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

1999 Men’s Work on the Web http://www.cal.shaw.wave.ca/~dufa/men.htm

1998 Mens Work II, The Centre Gallery, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

1998 Visions of Transformation, The Centre Gallery, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

1997 The Garden a Dual Perspective, Deacon Ulrich Fine Arts, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

1997 Art Gala ‘97, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

1997 Starship Achieve Fine Art Auction, Science Centre, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

1997 men’s work, The Centre Gallery, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

1996 Fresh Paint, Deacon Ulrich Fine Arts, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

1996 Graduating Show, Illingworth Kerr Gallery, Alberta University of the Arts, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

1995 Mission Yugoslavia, Museum of the Regiments, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

Curatorial Practice On and Off Web

2019 Curated by Jerald Blackstock on Flikr https://www.flickr.com/photos/jerald_blackstock/galleries/72157698231296172/

2007 Contemporary Art and Spirituality, Scarboro United Church, Calgary Alberta, Canada

2000 Guest Curator, ad hocracy. The Centre Gallery, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

1999 Guest Curator, Aspects: Land, Body, Mind. The Centre Gallery, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

1999 Men’s Work on the Web an ongoing web site as a continuation of the Men’s Work exhibitions. 

1998 Guest Curator, Mens Work II, The Centre Gallery, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

1998 An Art Show, show of student works from Care West, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

1997 Art Show, show of student works from VRRI, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

1997 Guest Curator, The Garden a Dual Perspective, Deacon Ulrich Fine Arts, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

1997 Achieve, Starship Achieve Fine Art Auction, Science Centre, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

1997 Guest Curator, men’s work, The Centre Gallery, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

1997 Assistant Curator, Black Circus, Charles Malinsky, solo exhibition Ramsay Design Centre, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

Publications Hardcover and eBook

2020 What Good Can I Make Of This? My Experience of Rational Emotive Behavioral Therapy ISBN: 978-1-7772148-2-1

2020 Muse the Narcissi’s Stare - a person or personified force who is the source of inspiration for a creative artist, a predator, a monster. ISBN 978 772148 0 7

2020 The Duchy of Jerald Cityscape Book 2 in the series The Duchy of Jerald formerly titled ‘The Big Picture Book Pictorial Essays and Social Comment’ ISBN 9780463701072 all rights reserved 2019 Revised Edition 2020 ISBN 978-1-7772148-1-4 all rights reserved 2020

2019 The Duchy of Jerald Big Picture Book – Pictorial Essays and Social Comment. by Jerald W. Blackstock BFA. Published by Blackstock Art&Design. ISBN: 9780463701072

2019 The Duchy of Jerald – Fine Art, Love, REBT and Disappointment by Jerald W. Blackstock BFA Published by Blackstock Art&Design   ISBN: 9780463715666 –

2019 Photographize Magazine New York Issue 40 pages 134/135 https://www.photographize.co/magazine/issue40/

2019 Photographize New York social platforms https://www.photographize.co/

2019 Photographize New York social platforms https://www.photographize.co/

2018 Photographize New York social platforms https://www.photographize.co/

2018 Photographize New York social platforms https://www.photographize.co/

2018 Photographize New York social platforms https://www.photographize.co/

2017 Photographize New York social platforms https://www.photographize.co/

2017 Photographize New York social platforms https://www.photographize.co/

2000 Udderly Art, Colourful Cows For Calgary, by Tom Keyser. 2000, Johnson Gorman. Bovine with a Cause, pg.28 ISBN 10: 0921835558 / ISBN 13: 9780921835554

2000 Thorn Magazine, Going Down the Road Feeling Fine. Issue 2

2000 Thorn Magazine, Deconstructing the Commode. Issue 1

1994 Glenbow Museum, Calgary, Alberta, Canada. Art History paper on Buddhism placed into archives.

1994 Photo credit, C Magazine, issue 40, winter 1994, pg 48.

Awards

2006 Winner, Association of Fine Chefs Annual Illustration Competition

2005 Winner, Association of Fine Chefs Annual Illustration Competition

2002 Finalist, Alberta New Media Awards, Illustration category

1996 President’s Honour Roll, Alberta University of the Arts

1995 President’s Honour Roll, Alberta University of the Arts

1995 Alberta Foundation for the Arts, Visual Arts Study Grant

1995 Continuing Arts Foundation, Travel Scholarship

1994 President’s Honour Roll, Alberta University of the Arts

1994 I.O.D.E Foundation Scholarship

1993 Royal Canadian Legion Bursary

Of Prison and Art

high frustration tolerance is something everyone becoming an adult needs to develop, short term pain for long term gain

'To those of us living with stress and frustration during COVID-19 restrictions, these artists demonstrate how to develop an inner space of freedom – and how to live imaginatively and purposefully in a strange new world.' - What we can learn about isolation from prison artists - Janie Paul Professor Emerita of Art and Design, University of Michigan - published in The Conversation newsletter.

The other word for stress is fear, usually stemming from the notion life is terrible and awful and I can't stand it, which means I will die from it. Evidence based psychology suggests you aren't dead so you have been standing it, you are standing it, so you will stand it. The debilitating discomfort anxiety then stems from low frustration tolerance is a choice, high frustration tolerance is something everyone becoming an adult needs to develop, short term pain for long term gain.

Comparing quarantine where you stay home and chill to prison experience, where murder and rape are around every corner is a bit of a stretch, but the terribleizing and awfulizing it can feel the same, the terror of anxiety whether the cause is real or imagined is still terror.

In my anthro class we were shown that monkeys incarcerated, raised in lab cages, used repetitive behavior to distract from that terror, they masturbated repeatedly.

Religious folks are those trained to live in fear and shame & obligation, its called F.O.G., (it’s also how narcissists manipulate others) then use repetitive behavior to distract from their induced programmed over-anxiety, prayer, chanting what have you.

Yoga it turns out is also a distraction but not a cure and the relief from over-anxiety (terror) can be so profound it is called a spiritual experience. Some, often intelligent and educated, then dedicate their lives to this distraction, even signing over their houses and their bodies to the cult, the cult of fear creation and distraction.

When I was an addictions counsellor at the local jail using REBT (rational emotive behavioral therapy) I noticed many folks there were 'good' at art making, at the time I thought painstaking realistic drawing was art and that it was good, not just repetitive behaviour, the distraction therapy of art therapy.

When I started a formal art school career I learned that anyone can draw and in 6 months all the students were able to achieve a high level of realism, due to the practice demanded from the heavy work load.

Hitler, it is said, bounced all the artists out of Germany that weren’t realists, fear based conservatives love realism, but perhaps that’s an urban myth as compelling as it is.

So when I went back to the jail art, after art school, I looked for such things as the beauty of the hand made mark, subtlety, elegance or even accurate rendering from observation to no avail. I found instead renderings that reminded of the stained bedsheets of the residue of masturbating teenage boys, evidence of a untreated disease process.

When Ms. Paul talks about imagination and purpose, well we all have an imagination, its our evolutionary birthright, we couldn’t have survived the jungle (using anxiety) without it, let alone cross the street.

The purpose of life as the religious folks like call it, is a trap, its like self esteem, if you have it you can lose it, then you are depressed and anxious. Better to take the elegant solution that Dr. Ellis in his book The Myth of Self Esteem prescribes, dump the entire notion and focus on something more satisfying, the purpose of life is satisfaction.

I recently put this to the test, after losing an arm and a leg, using his advice, do every thing you can to deal with it, then ignore it and focus on something more satisfying. The physiatrists at the hospital wanted to know why I wasn’t over-depressed and over-anxious without drugs, they had no experience with psychotherapy being simple elegant and effective, too much Jung and Freud perhaps.

What I didn’t do was change my art practice to something repetitive and self distracting. How often have I seen this rubber stamp ‘art’ in the gallery, seen one seen them all, nothing compelling, cruise the entire exhibition in five minutes, Yawn.

So I kind of resent these poor incarcerated people, like masturbating monkey’s in a cage, being presented as something more than society’s disease process. Like religion and cults or even the rites of passage of art and academia where I see the bars of self imposed incarceration but I see no evidence of higher purpose, for it is a concept used to sell stuff, like very expensive art or religious trappings, a used car salesman’s scam taking advantage of the ill and vulnerable to sell to the morbidly self righteous.


references:
Take Back Your Life: Recover from Cults, Abusive Relationships Madeleine Tobias, M.S., R.N., C.S., Janja Lalich, Ph.D., 
The Myth of Self-Esteem: How rational emotive behavior therapy can change your life forever. Ellis, Albert, Ph.D
The Case Against Religion - Albert Ellis Ph.D

I'm Sure Your Nipples Are Lovely

I have the right, as a slave, to hurt the slave owner, by being free.

This is why brick and mortar art galleries hate me, I give as much validity/value to digital artwork as painted/printed artwork. It’s not the canvas and the glue that sticks the pigments on whatever surface that are valuable, or even the mind that conceived the work. Anyone can make art, simply have a high tolerance of frustration and you can succeed at anything. It’s not even physically challenging, you are not like an Olympic athlete hopped up on performance enhancing drugs doing tricks for multi billionaire sponsors to enjoy.

Modern art, my second education in art, the first was old masters technique and materials, the third was formal education for 6 years at a postmodern school, claimed modern art to be a religious/spiritual experience, the critic (Greenburg) as shaman interpreting the natural world, the artist as mere stupid craftsman, much like a religion instead of science and the gallery as the temple. Today, still, to become a professional art worker there are rites of passage similar to the monastery.

The gallery I worked in got 20 visitors a month, to any artists show, in a year on Flikr alone I get 2 million. In a gallery as part of a stable of artists competing for a show providing my own framing and customers, usually friends and family, the richer the better, I am treated as little more than a slave by the gatekeepers of the artworld.

The business owners/gallerists treat art on the web as a tease, if you want to see my nipples, you have to come to the brick and mortar 'real' store where 70% of their income is derived by picture framing. Treating artists like a common grifter street whore, conning, hooking customers for them. Dressing up this sleaze with the trappings of sophistication and elegance. I prefer to be an honest sex artworker not a prostituted one.

The Christian conservative slaveowners that currently are in power in my little backwater of a province manipulate with guilt, obligation and fear as all narcissists do, in this case shaming those of us that buy on the internet, during a pandemic, supposedly causing their funders, store owners, to go broke, bastards that we are, avoiding malls, to stay alive.

My web page has no advertisers, my blog is funded by subscription, my framer/printer charges a fair price for a valid internet service. I sincerely wish every gallery to go broke like any slave owner, the slaves hurt the slave owner by being free.

I'm sure your nipples are lovely, but I don't don't need to drive to Texas to pay to see them, that's not erotic art, that is sex work, titillations for religious conservatives and I am not in the market.

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